Went to the psychiatrist today. He added another new med. Now I’m at 7 a day now. That fucking pisses me off. I know I need to get over my issues with being on so many meds. I so fucking tired of all this.
lnop:
Mark Manders’s sculptures can be read as poems that have been freed from the language and evoke a mysterious world of ghostly afterimages and waking dreams.
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I am, again, at the point where I think I’ll never get better. Sick forever is what goes through my head. My depression is back and my anxiety if fucking with me everyday. I had almost 2 months free of cutting and I slipped the other night and cut. I fucking ruin everything. My husband and therapist keep telling me that I’m one step closer to being back in the hospital. That is not going to happen!! I’ve only been out 2 months. FUCK FUCK FUCK
wayniac007:
That means letting go of things and ( people ) who keep bringing us down ! I am so ready to cut ties with certain people , who are TOXIC , VICIOUS , and just outright not willing to change ! TIME TO LET GO !!!!
I hope you know that I am really trying to let things go. I have fought to save horrible relationships my entire life because I had no one else. When your parents cause the most damage, do the most traumatizing things to you, you learn to expect that treatment. You seek it out when you are finally ‘free’. I know that the healthiest thing for me (and our relationship) is to let my family go. My brain know’s that leaving them behind would allow me to find true happiness. My heart is breaking at the prospect. I am so tired of all the pain.
I’m just so sorry that my issues have made our life together such a battle. I know you truly love me and I hope you know that I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone. (via wayniac007)
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